So just when I though things couldnt get any worse...they dont.
things got better...surprised?
I dont have to move anymore, I can stay with my aunt!
Its great! No more wicked step mother, no more drunken mean step dad, and no more fighting or depression. I have somewhere to live, and a good place where people actually care about me! its strang...
I thought when people told me "things will get better" they lied...but ya know what... things DO get better! It just takes a hell of a lot of time, but its worth it in the end
So for all the people who are heart broken, have a broken home, or just feel sad and unwanted...your heart will heal, you will find a real home, and you will find your place in this world...because ya know what....
life goes on.....


listen to:
A Place In This World - Taylor Swift

I didn't know, what I would find, when I went lookin for a reason
I know, I didnt read between the lines, and baby ive got nowhere to go
I tried to take the road less traveled by
but nothin seems to work the first few times am I right?

so how could i ever, try to be better
nobody ever, lets me in
and i can still see you, this aint the best view
on the outside lookin in
I've been alot of lonely places I've
never been on the outside

you saw me there, but never knew
that I would give it all just to be
a part of this, a part of you
and now its all too late so you see
you could have helped if you had wanted to
but no one notices until its too, late to do anything

how could I ever, try to be better
nobody ever, lets me in
and I can still see you, this aint the best view
on the outside lookin in
I've been alot of lonely places I've
never been on the outside

From the moment that we met
My world was turned around
Upside down
To some degree I still regret
My memory
for keeping you around
I thought that you were mine
But my broken hearts been shattered
One too many times

And I don't want to see you anymore
I'm just not that strong
I love it when you're here,
But I'm better when you're gone
I'm certain that I've given,
and oh how you can take
There's no use in you looking
There's nothing left for you to break
Baby please release me
Let my heart rest in pieces

Someone let you down again
So you turn to me
Your convenient friend
Oh but I know what you're doing
And what you hope to find
I've seen it a thousand times
Oh the fire we had before
Are now just bitter ashes
Left scattered on the floor

Pieces- Rascal flatts (with a few changes...not really tho)

ok so now I find out i'm moving
I have to leave my friends, my mom, my brother, and the one I love....
He's upset, and so are my friends...
To me, the worst feeling in the world is having to miss someone
and I have to miss alot...
Lets hope this move is going to help me, be a good thing
Down south I hear is a lot nicer, less drug use and kinder people..
So maybe i'll actually be ok...once I leave depression
I hope I can forget the bad things, and leave them behind in CT

TO KENTUCKY!

he's graduating this year
i may never see him again
a tagedy? a loss? i dont know...
all i know is that i'll miss him.